Creating a sacred space

One of the major themes of my memoir is learning to love myself.  I have done tremendously with that, but there are still some areas where I do not demonstrate love or respect for myself.  The largest manifestation of that is the chaos that my bedroom is currently in.  There is a huge amount of clutter and mess.  It is to a scary extreme, and yesterday I gave my mirror image a pep talk.  "Kimmie, this is not the picture of a room of someone that loves themselves.  You deserve to treat yourself better than this."

I don't have a place to write.  I cannot get to my desk due to all the clutter around it.  I bought a new desk chair, because I was previously using a camp chair, but the chair is still in the box in the back seat of my car because I have nowhere to put it.  I want to fix this.  I really want to create a sacred space for myself.  I want a desk that feels good to sit at and write for long periods of time.

I have vowed to not beat myself up for creating the mess, or for letting it get so far out of control.  Today, I gently praise myself for taking a few steps to rectify the situation.  I plan to plug the speakers into the computer, and turn on some upbeat music and to get started.  I will work for a while, then take a break, then work some more.  This is the most loving way I can spend my day off of work.  I am giving myself a gift, rather than "working hard." 

Self-improvement and personal growth are processes that are never "complete".  I will always be a work in progress.  That is a blessing and gives me motivation to keep moving forward. Life is not, nor will it ever be, "perfect", but I can continue to make it better and better.  Sometimes I backslide, but I think that is normal and sometimes even healthy, as long as I can get back on the path of growth.  Loving myself is about forgiving myself for being imperfect.  Loving myself is about rejoicing in my humanity, warts and all.