Prodigal daughter returns

Where, oh where, has little Kimmie gone?  When we last saw our Heroine, it was November, and she was contemplating food and weight.  Then came December, full of the hustle and bustle of the holiday season.  Too many parties and birthdays and stuff and I just didn't have time to write.

But in late December I went on vacation.  I even had some down time that would have been perfect for writing, but I felt "dried up" and didn't know what to write.  Now, January is almost gone, it's been a full two months since I posted, and I have to take a hard look at WHY I have not written.

I think a lot of it has to do with the subject of my last post... weight.  I think since I am still holding onto this extra weight, I have had a negative voice telling me I am a failure and a bunch of other BS.  Additionally, I have been having a bit of the winter doldrums.  While I don't feel significantly depressed, I just notice a bit of apathy, which I can only associate with it being winter.  December and January have historically been "bad times" for me, so it's just my life following it's usual cycles.

But this blog, my book, and my life are not about how much I weigh.  My journey and the story I have to share is about love and compassion.  It's about the love and compassion I have for myself.  It means I forgive myself for not being perfect, for letting some weight creep on, and I love myself to make some changes to nip the problem in the bud before it becomes/seems insurmountable (again.)

I have a number of blog ideas peculating in my head, so I hope have a more active presence here over the coming days and weeks.  I am committed to doing *some* kind of writing every day.  My current goal is to write a minimum of 15 minutes a day on the scenes/stories for my memoir.  Additionally I want to post here once or twice a week.

Determined and excited once again.